Welcome Back to the PMDD Blog Take 2

Season 02, Episode 01

You've got a chance to start out all over again. A new place, new people, new sights. A clean slate. See, you can be anything you want with a fresh start. ~ Annie Roulx

I completely fell off the face of the earth. My PMDD hit so hard at the end of last year I was barely living. I focused all of my energy into keeping my child alive and my husband away from me. I was spiraling out of control like a maelstrom. Then on December 18th, nothing.

Brand New Year, New Me, New House, New Job, New EVERYTHING

After 10 years of fighting and several (and I mean SEVERAL) doctors documentation of my PMDD aggressively getting worse, I finally got a Laparoscopic Hysterectomy with a Bi-Lateral Salpingectomy and Oophorectomy. I knew when I started the blog I was getting prepared for this process and wanted to document my process but I wanted to first establish what PMDD was, why it is important to bring society aware of it and the difference between this and regular to severe PMS before I spoke about my own experience. But never fear, I still plan to do this. The last 15 years have been permanently stamped on my brain and I will never forget what I went through and what I put my friends and family through in this discovery process of PMDD.

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Just because I have had surgery does not mean my PMDD journey is over. It's not. I am just now starting a new chapter in PMDD. Now comes the recovery process. The process of going to therapy to unpack everything that happened. To accept and let go the things said and down while suffering from PMDD. For holding myself accountable for what happened and accepting that something things I couldn't control. For learning how to deal with stress and anger, happiness and contentment. For amending relationships with my loved ones and building them back up. Most of all, it will be a journey of self discovery.

I know this blog is filled with "millennial cliche's, and I abhor using the phrases but that doesn't make them any less true. 2024 is a new year, new me. The survival mode I have been in for over a decade has come to an end and I will change. Everything about me is going to change. My personality, my characteristics, my mannerisms, and so much more. Not only will I be changing through the help of EDMR/PTSD therapy, Anger Management therapy, documenting my PMDD experience on this blog; but we are moving to Kiaserslautern Germany, my child is starting 1st grade at school (and will no longer be homeschooled by me), I will be interning at a hospital, and possibly getting a job by the end of the year. This is not all that will change either! I quite smoking, I have started the Optavia weight loss program and I WILL GET PHYSICALLY HEALTHY.

Go Hard Or Go Home

Have I bitten more off than I can chew? Most likely but that is how us X'ennials do things, am I right?!

I've Got this

I didn't start off so great with keeping the blog going when I was deep into the PMDD and I will change that. Bringing awareness to PMDD, sharing my experience and having a safe space for those who suffer from PMDD to share our stories and support each other is very important to me.

~ Carpe, Carpe Diem, seize the day, make your lives extraordinary. That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse. Only in their dreams can we be truly free. 'Twas always thus, and always thus will be.~ Robin Williams as John Keating

Dead Poets Society, 1989

Tune in later this week to see what the escape pick of the month is for March.