2026 System Reboot

Season 04, Episode 01

You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.” — Malala Yousafzai

A delusional person once said, "I completely fell off the face of the earth, AGAIN.  Sound familiar?  It should, I said the same thing last February when I tried to “reboot” my blog.  One of the bad habits about PMDD, is crawling so deep into a hole that finding your way back is so overwhelming it is easier to stay in the warm, dark, cocoon you crafted yourself."  It is time to turn this delusion into a reality.

(Adobe Stock Photos website https://stock.adobe.com/search?k=reboot

I really want to make this blog work.  I really want to get consistent with it. Wanting is not the same as doing. actually "doing" is what needs to happen. Talking about it gets me nowhere, it is time to start backing up the words with action. My ass needs to cash that check my mouth is writing. The action of doing is one of the hardest things to do. I need to get control over my life.  I HAVE to take time for myself.  Since I have started this blog, I have been riddled with such guilt that I have been putting everyone else's needs, wants, thoughts and emotions before mine.  That is ok…… to a point, but don't let it consume your life to were you loose all sense of yourself and turn into a hollow self of a "yes person".

(Dreams Time website: https://www.dreamstime.com/illustration/yes-man.html

Yes Person Failure

Besides the obvious reasons why being a Yes Person is so wrong, is that it defeats the purpose of setting yourself on the path of recovery from PMDD. If you continue this behavior for a long amount of time, your loved ones start to get comfortable and take advantage of your new behavior as your new norm.  You start to feel unneeded, unwanted, and that your thoughts/opinions/feelings don't matter.  This also prevents your loved ones from healing as well and makes them feel entitled to the "yes person" behavior you are gifting them.  

I am currently a yes person in my family, but I made it worse and brought that yes man energy into my work and personal life.  Since my last post, I have been so busy with everyone else in my life that I have done nothing for myself. I am 100% burnt out. I feel almost as exhausted as I did when I was in the throes of PMDD. But now I am clear-headed enough to see that I am the problem, and I need to do something about it without disturbing the "almost peace" that has settled in my house. I can't keep this kind of life up for much longer or I will end up in the hospital because my body will collapse.

Next Step

Can I actually do what I wish to do? Can I actually stop talking about it and just do it without making a big production out of it? I guess we both will find out next week, if another blog post shows up.

(Mpermperpisang Medium website https://mpermperpisang.medium.com/yes-man-vs-no-man-dalam-dunia-automation-testing-69c25d77881c)

Tune in next Tuesday for Episode #02 on Did I Follow Through?

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